Dated last April 14 2011 until the 17th day of the month, my entire ILC (International Leaders Conference) experience was all paid off. Sobra sobra pa nga. There were several things happened and it included me as a person, my personality, my relationship with my friends, with that ‘friend’, and I as a Youth for Christ.
I had committed myself to be ARMED AND READY! It was for a countless times that 6000+ delegates, including me yell that we are already in a full armor to face life and in living a life in the fullness of Christ. I could still imagine how we look to be so dedicated by that act. So firm. So bold. So brave.
After a few more days it happened..
..during the black Saturday, when I attended the mass in celebration for the lenten season that I realized that I am loved by my GOD and remembering that since I commit to be armed and ready, it is of big assurance that HE will put us in a BATTLE.
True indeed. Even just after a week arriving from Cagayan, andami nang pagbabago. It was all changes that I don’t expect to happen. Just as I thought that I am doing the right move, it is then that I realized that I am already losing the grip in pursuit of that purpose. Yes, this matters with my family..with my father. If only he know how I love him and how much my other siblings wanted to respect him not because of fear but because of love.
Aside from it, some other things also bothers me. When ever I got a chance to pause at titigan yung right hand ko, I am reminded by my missions and purpose. Being asked, “What is the Lord readying you for?” makes me feel like I’m in a cooler loaded with so much of ice. I don’t know.
But as far as I know, I had the mission to make myself an instrument of happiness for others and very first of this is my father..my family. I love them and I don’t want to lose them. They are the reason of why I strive hard, and to continue my existence. Because it just them that I continue to fight and survive. I love my family so much.
Other than that are some “petty” problems that I should deal with. A problem about myself and of how I act and live. I guess.. i just really have to fix myself.
and lastly,
For all of these things, there’s just only one thing that I am sure I will do. I WILL SURVIVE AND WIN EVERYDAY IN PURSUANT OF MY PURPOSE.
God bless us all ;)
dian56
