find what you love.

“You’ve got to find what you love.”

    I was honestly got puzzled of what am I going to be the moment I finished reading the article. I am now confused of what I would become and of what would I be (5) five years or ten years from now. But there’s just only thing that is for sure, it really inspires me ending up myself awakened for who I really am.

      From the previous write up that I had been producing, my appreciation and gratitude to the life and works of Steve Jobs is clear. I guess, and for me, no one is comparable to him not even Bill Gates. Even before, the moment I got to know him during the movie Pirates of the Silicon Valley, I already saluted him and I pretty well know that it had not come into waste and trash. Much more now that I was given a chance to read more about him by reading the three significant events of his life. From that commencement address that he had given, it is of much opportunity for me to have a copy of it. Through this I can be able to remind myself of the lessons and learning that I may be used in having my own journey in the field of technopreneurship.

      “You’ve got to find what you love.”, he started. The moment I got to read this, I was really in an unexplainable state. I don’t know of what would I have to sink in mind. I don’t even know if I can be able to find what I love. But what strikes me most is when he talks about TRUST. This is the most character that I treasure the most. The very value that I wanted to have, to earn and doesn’t want to lose. But, ironically speaking, to trust especially to myself and to my capabilities is very much difficult. Although people may see me as tough and strong, still I could not find it in me to trust my whole being. Now why? It’s because I am being affected by my on faults and a captive of my own personality. I just don’t know but I could really find it hard and I know that it’s because of my faults and mistakes done in the past.

       I am really enlightened by the thought shared by Steve Jobs,  “You have to trust in something---, your guts, destiny, life, karma”. With his experiences in the past he was able to connect all the dots which comprise all of his good or bad memories.  From him I learned that of what ever the situation may come, it could still be possible for that single dot connects us to our better future. I learned that we should believe on ourselves, to who we are and to what we can do. All we have to do is not to lose hope and make a better dot to create a better and path.

      No w I know and will keep in mind this wonderful thought. Trust and build yourself.  Make a better experience and succeed in life. Don’t stop believing, soar high and make histories!

      Contrary to Steve jobs, I am not so fortunate to find what I love at an early stage of my life. I could still remember that during my elementary days, I used to be scolded as the teacher  in the class which I know that I really don’t like. Now during my high school days, I am somehow awakened and developed into a career which I thought that I would be best at. And I believe that it is through the field of public relationship or something that deals with public service, government, law or things that needs to be done with a verbal ability.

      Funny it may be but what I am used to ask to myself is, ” What am I doing in the valley of silicon, in a computer world? ”. Now in relevance to my first learning I believe that this is what we call as destiny and I have faith in it. I just wanted also to share that during my stay as an Information technology student, I had already come across different trials. I had once become a regular student then suddenly not. This is a normal scenario for me and to most of my classmates knowing that somehow it is not a shameful thing. Now going back to the love and loss of Steve Jobs, I gained so much and the most specific of which is not to lose hope even if trials keep on coming. By just being a student we should all learn this very important thing. Just keep moving and continue to fight that even if we may fail we should not stop ourselves and just be settled. This is the factor I really admire about Steve Jobs. He never stops on doing and developing for something. He innovates ceaselessly. I know that this learning does not only talks about as a student but more on becoming as a technopreneur. I believe that what it refers most is for survivability of an individual. For a world that keeps on changing, it continually clears out the old and makes way for the new. Thus we should learn to value things before we fall and to continue loving that same thing through some innovations and development. We may fail at some point, but it is not always the end. We had only loss the chance but not our heart. It is only through the heart that we could follow our intuition.  If we would have this we can never be a failure and we can always put ourselves next to success.

                                                                                                                                                                                  

      “There is no reason not to follow your heart.” Sigh. Unexpectedly this had become our discussion for these past few days. Mind or Heart?  Frequently, if I am to ask about this question, I usually opt to choose the mind which I guess the reason why I am not happy most of the time. But as we go on to our argument, slowly I am influenced by them especially to my one closest friend which is a very inspiring person.

       In our life, we have to make big choices and big decisions and with regards to how it will affect us is greatly dependent on how we will embrace every little thing life had brought.

what are you living for?

       

       I declare it this time that the hardest question to provide an answer is to be asked “For what purpose are you living?” . It took me several moments before I got to answer this one and which I know that would still be changing.

      I believe that I was given the gift of speaking, the ability to talk well either in a mass of people or for a few numbers of individual. And I know that of what I do is not just to speak but to talk not through the mouth but through the heart. It may sound to be so dramatic but I had proved it several times that I had somehow touch the lives of those people whom I used to talk with. But it is sooner that I realized that I had not just talk to them through the heart but also through the wisdom in me in seeing and perceiving things. Please don’t get me wrong or see me for as if I am just making stories but it is the real thing that I truly experienced.

      In connection with this, I see my purpose as a middle man, A middle man in every action. I can tell you that I am neither passive nor aggressive thus saying to be that assertive type of person with a balance emotions. A concrete example for this is my experience with my family. There were once a trial for our family where we were tested of how long and of until when can we hold the grip and not let go. My family members specially my father and mother almost lost the grip but it is I who tapped them and made them realized the value of our family. I thought that that would be the end and I believe that I was just only used by our Almighty King in a having a wisdom in talking to them and build our family.

     Now with regards to technopreneurship, I believe that through this, I could be able to handle situations that may somehow alter the good of the business. . Knowing how to deal with people and thinking and deciding with wisdom is what I can share and do..

Personal Trait (ENTREPRENEURIAL)

What kind of individual are you?

      Its always been enjoying on my part taking several test. I so like it every time I get my self measured until what can I do and to where can I still go.I love to take several test. In fact, I before sending myself to this university, I also took other admission test and scholarship grants and fortunately got and passes all of it. Well, those where just justifications about me loving the fact of being tested. I just don't know if what other people feel about it. Just like any other test, personal trait is another form of measuring and evaluating ourselves. This serves as tool of evaluating our capacity and ability to handle a situation when it talks about entrepreneurship. Now the question is: Am I in line or not? can I still have the possibility to be one?

      Just last wednesday, July 28, 2010, I was given a chance of evaluating myself again and this time it is through a personal trait. A test that would measure my capability and percentage of my ability in becoming an entrepreneur. By just being true to my self, I am really not into business or any form of entrepreneur I am thinking that engaging into this business could be a tedious stuff to do, risky thus saying that it is of no assurance. That is why I am not sure to myself that I could have the probability of passing the test. It was what I thought but it turned out to be something different to what I expected. Something that somehow lifted my feeling and made me awakened of the fact that I could be better to what I am usually thinking.How you see yourself and how others see you may be quite different. Thats the reason why its hard to be objective about oneself and limiting our selves to what more else could we possibly do. Aside from doubting to myself, I
also frequently asked myself of how do these test is being promulgated that it could really have a result that reflects to our own personality. Aside from personality test, there are also several other type of test which also reflects our own identity. So I could say that having answered the test is really not a joke and it definitely make sense. It is based on tried and tested principles, and had made well by a renowned Professor of human psychology.


      Well, as I am answering the test, it went so out so well and just flow the way a normal test do. Funny it may be but I used to think that I could not relate myself to the test due to my background and to the way I think. But, the test was just so cool! I enjoyed answering all of it since most of the questions ask for a scenario
of talking to someone or to a friend. It generally talks on how an individual interact to another and of how an individual make decisions and being like me, having sanguine type of personality, is not a tough thing to do. Talking is my passion specially having a pep talk. I want it and like it specially that I love having a quality time to some one. I can relate to all of this and assuredly answered it right and correct. Then, taDDdaadda...as fast as a blink of an eye can do, we already had our test result! By summing it up I ended having an over all score of 44 points and I could see that most of us got a score ranging from 38-46's. Before our professor handed us the interpretation of our results, I could already see the his bright smile. Then, unexpectedly, all of us got the result of 2nd to the highest. Our result was "Somewhat entrepreneurial". I guess that none of us falls on the category of the lowest one. Of course, why would we have? We are the best and we have nothing but
only the best! If only you know that as I am encoding every letter of this reflection, I cant help but laugh but I swear that I believe to what I am giving special point. We believe that we are the best, the giants of the university, the endangered species, the skilled and talented group of students. Yet, after all of this description
given to us by our teacher and proved by the guidance office, it still bugles my mind of why are we still in an irregular status. During my freshmen years, I used to ask if is it the subject that is to difficult or its just us that are just too dull for the subject. Now, I had an answer to it and is very much satisfied to what I found. Back to the topic of still becoming an irregular student, well, I had also figured out the answer and one of it is by having a faculty or shall i say a den of great lions??? (laugh out loud) The terminators lived in our college and I am very much proud of it!


      Having taken this kind of test, it makes me realize few different things yet so meaningful and important. I learned that not all things may end up the way we think. Not at all times and even could not control every situation. Secondly, I learned and awakened by the thought that I am growing up not just physically but more preferably in growing in spirit and to the way I think. During times like this, I am always stucked in my mind set way back when I was still in high  school where what I think was just too shallow and dry. I always forgot that I already got a new me, a new Dianne with a whole brand new and upgraded personality. Through the upgraded version of me, I can say that it is my edge among any other persons. I believe that I,as a socializer and pretty knows how to handle and  deal with people will surely excel in the field of technopreneurship. In connection with it, with the help of Mr. Google, I too find some other significant factors or traits when it talks about personality.Covering the areas of Introversion/Extraversion, Emotional Stability, Determinism, Sexuality and Social & Political Attitudes, it will help you see yourself - your mental, emotional and behavioral strengths and weaknesses - in a more objective light. It is an ideal starting point for personal development.
This factors provide the tools for a wide-ranging analysis of our personality, so we can know ourself better. This
includes:

1. Openness - Appreciation for art, emotion, adventure, unusual ideas, curiosity, and variety of experience.

* It speaks about being inventive, curious with consistentency and becoming aware of some cautions.Basing it with my prevous experiences,
I could attest that I too had once became a leader. And in becoming such, it is also a prerequisite to be open minded. Openness is the key to understanding
and in having a harmonious form of living. Through this we can have a good relationship among individual thus maintaning a good man power when it comes to business.
Other than that, openness also invites more doors of having more ideas and plans that would probably raise the entrepreneur or could alleviate the suffarage of
any given business. When we have this factor we are open to the possibility of thinking out of the box therefore providing us an unusual ideas.
In a venture like technopreneurship, everything is changing and evolving. So, it is a significant factor to consider if we are to enter this journey cause I
believe that it is only through openness that we can be able to adapt more ideas either from us or from people around us. Life is an ever changing color wheel
and it depends on the brightness or darkness of the color that we will experience.



2. Conscientiousness – A tendency to show self-discipline, act dutifully, and aim for achievement; planned
rather than spontaneous behavior.

 * This factor refers to being efficient, organized rather than easy-going and careless. In relevance to the above statement,being disciplined and responsible to ones task is important. Nothing will happen and nothing will be done if we are just to demand and demand. For us to be successful, we should learn to talk less but say more. Aside from it, as a technopreneur we should also have the value of "pagkukusa". Its like, WALKING THE TALK. Do more and strive for the best since its a close to close battle. The arena is changing and we are setting into different kind of environment thus being hard working in adapting  to these changes is vital and plays and important role. Else, if we would just let things pass by with out coping up to this situation all that we would have is the possibility of being left beside the corner and be one or listed to those who will be considered as losers.



3.Extraversion – Energy, positive emotions, surgency, and the tendency to seek stimulation in the company of others.

 *Having with so much zest we should also contain the characteristics of becoming outgoing ,energetic,not to become shy and reserved. As it is being stated, if we are to join the heated competition in technopreneurship we should not left our selves empty and reserved. We should be aggressive and always on the go. Chances comes only once as well as opportunity. If we had failure before, we could still however rise and pick ourselves. Always maintain a good disposition in life and always seek hope and keep the faith burning.That is why, one of the things I also realize in becoming a great technopreneur is to have a good emotional condition. Be energetic, be happy and be positive!


4.Agreeableness –A tendency to be compassionate and cooperative rather than suspicious
and antagonistic towards others.

*In connection with the third factor, Extraversion which needs to be energetic, the fourth trait must also be
 friendly, compassionate, competitive and outspoken. This factor really strikes me. Oftentimes before, whenever there would be someone that will talk or share something in front, I used to have a question with in me if he or she is true to what he or she is saying. When ever there would be an unusual idea that I get from a speaker I then formulate a question ending up puzzled by my own faults and left hanging. It is then late that I will know that those questions where already answered. Its just that I am not able to listen at it because of my stupidity. But it was just before and I already learned my lesson. To be an excellent technopreneur I believe that being cooperative and trusting your colleagues in the venture is as well as important as we would have to believe in our own capabilities. We should all learn not to be antagonistic towards others. We may never know, they might have better ideas than we do or better from people whom we expect to have one. Remember:" Thou shall not judge a person. Thou shall not!!!".




5. Neuroticism –A tendency to experience unpleasant emotions easily, such as anger, anxiety, depression,
or vulnerability.

 *Being prone to competition, an entrepreneur must be sensitive and vigilant in his own standing. Nonetheless, he or she might lost the whole business. Though handed by this situation, he or she must maintain the serene feeling, be confident and feels his or her own security. Having read this characteristic, I was being fascinated. Yes! Why? Its all because I wanted to have it. When ever i would ask the question: "How will you remember me?" Most of my classmates, be it in high school or even now in college would say that I am "pikon". Although how hard would I say that I am not, still I could  not argue with them since it is them who are experiencing it with me. But actually, if what they consider as pikon is due to my facial expression, well its not true.
 Its just that I look strict and not approachable. But to tell you, I could be that some one to talk to and could lean on. I swear that I am understanding but however also got some unpleasant emotions but not as fast as others do. But, nonetheless, I would love to have this factor so I not to be vulnerable from
this form of negative emotions.


      These are the factors of having a good personal trait be it in a real life or in a business venture. I believe in it and even researched also attested it to be true and of real significance. I just hope to have it and keep it in me as I am to enter the venture of technopreneur. I know that everything will be  settled and will turn out right in God's perfect time and plan.

      Just like the smile our professor had, I also unnoticeably painted mine also. After all the words of encouragement that he had been giving us, I did not have a doubt of becoming proud of my self. Shall we say that I am not into entrepreneur but I could still be one. I have the possibility and quality of becoming
one so why suppress it? It seem to boastful but its not. I am really just inspired of the things beeing taught to me and makes me awakened of some serious stufff. Yes, I know and believe of this test and I now that me and my classmates could really go further and go beyond.

      If we would just not limit ourselves and cross the frontier, everything is possible. Now I know that everything is possible if we would just believe. There had been a lot of things happened this week aside from this test. An individual should not stop believing and should not doubt ones self for we, our own identity and personality is the cream of the crop where we are in, the ice cream in a halo-halo and the red cherry in the salad!!!

wind up the knot..

Dated last July 21, 2010 I together with the other Institute of Computing students meet our way.
It was a day of laughters and giggles.We were able to learn new things, found our own interpersonal skills,and  somehow be able to manage our anger, mold and make ourselves believe that we are a LEADER.For me, it is very flattering to know that the group where you belong is extremely talented, skilled and academe.I, myself is of great honor and privilege for becoming apart of this college. Other students from other colleges declares that they are the great and claims to be the best. But as far as I heard and as far as I know, that the Institute of computing students are the cream of the crop of our beloved university. No one shall say that it is a form of boasting. No it's not since it from the legal office of  UGTO who declared it during every freshmen orientations.
That is why, working and being with this people is of great fun and learnings. After the half day seminar,
we were divided into 12 groups with members randomly selected. In out group name Pink Cute pig (penk kyowt peeg),I only have one close friend. Although I am handed by this situation, I never thought of having a difficulty in gaining new friends. As what i had expected, I gained a very good one. Some of them are computer science students and some are information technology students from the evening program. We could not deny the fact that there is somehow a "tension" between the day and evening program. That, thus group could do better at this one and the other as well could do better that the other. thus saying that we as a student of the same college do compete which is not a good symbol of unity leading to progress.
It is during that time that I know, that we could really be a good friends. In fact, I am not with my close
friend during the activity.. I was with my new friends. It is of great fun doing the activities with them. Our first
stop was named "Build me up". It was a group of nails that needs to be hang up with just one nail standing as a foundation on a the ground. At first, we were quit and tried to experiment it, until such time that in less that 3 mins we were able to finish the game, thanks to kuya renz. Just like the nails, we should also be united and should work hand in hand. As what my other groupmates shared that there should not be a gap between each department since we have our own skills and personality. No bounds and no lapses.the other one was the spider web. It was really a hard activity.There were lots of ideas that keeps on flowing that we ended up sabog and walang nagawa. So be it, we did not able to finish it and failed 10 points. well, thats life, we win some we lose some. The second to the last was the "trust fall". at first, its seems to be so easy. I even thought that it would be of fun and amazing experience. When one of mu group mates is about to fall, he/she doubt
if we could catch him/her. I used to say that, it's just okay, just trust us and fall. But when it was my turn, I really really really really really find it hard. Although I am very much sure that they could catch me if I fall aside from the fact that they really have to [lol], I really have a hesitant feeling from nowhere. I guess that the fact of letting your self fall is difficult. but I still made it and as expected my heart beats as fast as it could and sounds like a speaker of its final maximum volume. wew, but I love the feeling.
 The last one was the helium hoop. Good for the background, helium is the lightest element.All we have to do is to let the hoop down with each of out pointer finger. Seems so easy right? But as we tried it, funny it may be but the hoop is going up! I can't help it but keep on laughing. For me its a strange feeling. You are giving you best force of lowering the hoop and yet its result is far different to our goal. We had it several times,we were keep reprimanded by our facilitator but we cant still make it. It still goes up and side by side but it never goes down. But we did extra efforts and taught ourselves to keep our focus and concentrate. At the end, we finally made it. Though it is light but it seems that it is the most heavy equipment we have for the day. Mas lalo kaming sumaya knowing that we were just 3 groups who made it...hahahaha

It was really an amazing day! A day full of fun and excitement. As a final say IO could attest that I had able to conquer the goal and mission of our seminar workshop: Cut the differences, wind up the knot. meet and gain new friends.I already gained friends and get to now them. Now my next step is to maintain my friendship with them and let grow all through the years...

I broke it first...

I never expect it to myself that I'll be doing such a "thing" nor did it appeared of how will I look like. Even just before, during a program or an event, I am used to be the director or one of the program committee or shall we even say that an audience in sort of time. But it never did for this
time.
It was all started by personal message that our sector head gave me and in fact I did not
believe such an invitation of doing such a thing...--- modeling. It was never my line and thought that it would never be mine. But, for the succeeding days it was all confirmed and was indeed true.
The night has come, July 31, 2010. Until its early hour, I still don't know how to manage to ramp or walk.
They would usually say that I am a man in an image of a woman and I am used being tease like that.
At around 5: 30 pm, we got ourselves painted with those "coloring",(hahahaha). WE got ourselves with a beautiful make-up and made ourselves as as glamor as possible which I know that is very true.We had the motif of  glamrock.
We played on our dress creatively and beautifully. while at the cr I really dom't know how to act and what to do. For I swear and everybody who knows me could testify that I am not the grilish type of an individual. I don't know
how will I walk with those pointed shoes.They had actually told us to come out but I can't. I feel like being stucked on that area. But, our director grab my hand and and shrugged me off the cr.
AHHHHHH, you might say that I am just over reacting but it's just awkward for me. Feels like its not me.
But as the time passes by, as the hands of the clock tiks, I getting better. It's juts like I'm little confused of what
to do. And now, the final hour had come, we were at the backstage ad in a minute or two, we'll be going out from that area, face the crowd and be on the spotlight. For the first time I broke it first. For the first time I got out of my shell and crack it with my own personality. I did'nt know how well did I do it.But remembering the core values of YFC, the PASSION, INTEGRITY, AND EXCELLENCE, I guess and I am proud to say that I made it well. All that I remember was the yell and the shouting of the people seeing us. Of course, I saw my sisters,classmates and co-YFC's there. The moment I saw them,
it was never a hard thing for me. In fact, even if how noisy the crowd was, I still heard the loudest shout and yell, and it was coming from my sisters. How funny it was for me because I was able to hear them. Its juts a proof that we really have a loud thundering voice in our family.
After our first exposure, we then hide our selves at the back waiting for the cue for our second and last exposure which is to be done by pair. And it happened the way it planned. I had my last sweetest smile and last graceful ramp best for that night.
In the end, I enjoyed it a lot and most of us uttered words of "panghihinayang" when we come to realize that its over.
Some of us even said,"Mao lang to? Dalia ra ui.". I too realized how short it was but I really felt extremely great and is very much overwhelmed. Now, what I am looking forward to is their reactions. Either be good or bad, I have no regrets of doing it.
Now I know that the verse for the Campus Fresh party is really applicable not only to me but most specially to several youths of had enjoyed the spotlight of being a part of that one of a kind event.
Isaiah 60:1 "Arise. Shine. For your light has come. And the glory of the Lord rise upon you."