I broke it first...

I never expect it to myself that I'll be doing such a "thing" nor did it appeared of how will I look like. Even just before, during a program or an event, I am used to be the director or one of the program committee or shall we even say that an audience in sort of time. But it never did for this
time.
It was all started by personal message that our sector head gave me and in fact I did not
believe such an invitation of doing such a thing...--- modeling. It was never my line and thought that it would never be mine. But, for the succeeding days it was all confirmed and was indeed true.
The night has come, July 31, 2010. Until its early hour, I still don't know how to manage to ramp or walk.
They would usually say that I am a man in an image of a woman and I am used being tease like that.
At around 5: 30 pm, we got ourselves painted with those "coloring",(hahahaha). WE got ourselves with a beautiful make-up and made ourselves as as glamor as possible which I know that is very true.We had the motif of  glamrock.
We played on our dress creatively and beautifully. while at the cr I really dom't know how to act and what to do. For I swear and everybody who knows me could testify that I am not the grilish type of an individual. I don't know
how will I walk with those pointed shoes.They had actually told us to come out but I can't. I feel like being stucked on that area. But, our director grab my hand and and shrugged me off the cr.
AHHHHHH, you might say that I am just over reacting but it's just awkward for me. Feels like its not me.
But as the time passes by, as the hands of the clock tiks, I getting better. It's juts like I'm little confused of what
to do. And now, the final hour had come, we were at the backstage ad in a minute or two, we'll be going out from that area, face the crowd and be on the spotlight. For the first time I broke it first. For the first time I got out of my shell and crack it with my own personality. I did'nt know how well did I do it.But remembering the core values of YFC, the PASSION, INTEGRITY, AND EXCELLENCE, I guess and I am proud to say that I made it well. All that I remember was the yell and the shouting of the people seeing us. Of course, I saw my sisters,classmates and co-YFC's there. The moment I saw them,
it was never a hard thing for me. In fact, even if how noisy the crowd was, I still heard the loudest shout and yell, and it was coming from my sisters. How funny it was for me because I was able to hear them. Its juts a proof that we really have a loud thundering voice in our family.
After our first exposure, we then hide our selves at the back waiting for the cue for our second and last exposure which is to be done by pair. And it happened the way it planned. I had my last sweetest smile and last graceful ramp best for that night.
In the end, I enjoyed it a lot and most of us uttered words of "panghihinayang" when we come to realize that its over.
Some of us even said,"Mao lang to? Dalia ra ui.". I too realized how short it was but I really felt extremely great and is very much overwhelmed. Now, what I am looking forward to is their reactions. Either be good or bad, I have no regrets of doing it.
Now I know that the verse for the Campus Fresh party is really applicable not only to me but most specially to several youths of had enjoyed the spotlight of being a part of that one of a kind event.
Isaiah 60:1 "Arise. Shine. For your light has come. And the glory of the Lord rise upon you."